Computers are so weird. Mine just told me that connecting to the internet was taking longer than usual, as if I didn’t already notice that. I would rather it tell me “Warning, I’m about to cut off and you are about to lose all of your work!” or maybe “This is the reason I am running slow today is: [insert reason].” Or how about telling me what is wrong with my Windows Media Player/ CD Drive. That would be really nice to know.
I’ll probably be writing often over the break because I have the time and there’s a lot I have to say I guess. Looking back at the semester is overwhelming. I survived the first semester away from home and I believe I passed all of my classes. And I didn’t die in my evaluation. Despite a few unexpected events in my personal life that carried over unfortunately into my school life, I’d say the semester went pretty darn well.
For next semester I have a few major things to work on. My voice needs a ton of work regarding support and placement…I am scared but I can worry about that later. And for me, I have to stop wanting to find the right answer because in theatre world, there isn’t a right answer. I’m working on being; just being. Mr. Tromsness says I’m like a gerbil. Yes, yes I am. Risk is my focus. Taking the risk and stop being so focused on getting it right. I hope I can do it!
And over the break I’ll be working on Shakespeare, a few packets Mr. Day gave out, and the biggie: Martin Luther King Jr. Andre De Shields is coming to work with us the week we come back on a project for MLK Day and Studio 3 actually gets to take part in it! I’m excited! They told us he was in The Wiz but I didn’t realize he was THE WIZ. I can say really like The Wiz but hey, it won a Tony for best musical and he was The Wiz. That’s pretty awesome.
So tonight I'm going to 2 christmas eve services! yay! one regular one and one midnight mass. i love christmas!
Monday, December 24, 2007
A lifetime movie?
So at the moment, I’m in the van, typing this on Word because there isn’t internet…duh. I’m going home finally. I went to the convent for the weekend. Sister Sol and Aunt Libby picked me up. I had so much stuff with me but whatever. It was nice to be at the convent. Sister Sol is babysitting a little girl who is 16 months old. I enjoyed teasing her, reminding her that I was the first baby to be brought up by Sister Sol. Apparently, Adelaide already is aware of this. Every time she goes into Sol’s room, she takes my picture off of the shelf and tries to run off with it. “Adelaide, I was first! I’m number ONE!!!”
As always, Sister Sol and I (and a sleeping Adelaide), watched a few movies on TV. We caught the middle of a Lifetime movie, I’m not sure of the title. I don’t know the plot very well partly because we came in at the middle and Sister Sol likes to switch the channels to check scores of games or other movies. Anyways, from what I gathered, the woman is looking for a new boyfriend or something through a radio contest. Her first husband died and she has son named Jonathan. I think the husband’s name is Bob. Bob’s ghost visits with Jonathan and they try to help the woman cope with Bob’s death. It was a really sweet story and I want to find out the rest of the story. But a movie review is not what I’m writing about. At one point in the movie, the woman wants to see Bob so badly and finally he appears to her. The scene between them was absolutely amazing. It was so fake, I mean its Lifetime, but I believed all of it. There was so much sincerity between those two people and suddenly I was crying. Over a Lifetime movie! It wasn’t a big sobbing cry but I was all teary and I don’t really understand how. That got me to thinking. I mean of course the past few weeks have been overwhelming to say the least, but why that moment in that movie? (Why this word now? Hehe)
The next day!
I was about to come to my conclusion but then we arrived at my house… Anyways, why am I crying over a Lifetime movie? [and I will now look up the movie and get the right names since I have internet] I see it this way: I’ve come to realize a few things about my recently ended relationship and it makes me really depressed. But at the same time I’m happy because I get to dream of my future Mr. Right while singing “I’ve Been Dreaming of a True Love’s Kiss” and making up my next relationship requirements which my Studio is totally aware of. So anyways, I’m watching this Lifetime movie and I realize that I want what that couple has. Complete sincerity, honesty. I look back at the past year and a half and I thought that I had it, but I really didn’t. I was honest and sincere on my end, but that was not what I was getting in return, especially towards the end. I’ve been so lost in wondering why I’ve been feeling so weird about the whole relationship and now I know and it’s a little sad, but so great at the same time. And like Sister Sol says, I should date 100 guys before I find the perfect one. Well, maybe I won’t date 100 guys, but I have a few things I don’t want in a guy now, and many things that I do want. I figure, if I have these I can cut down on at least 75 “eligible” guys without getting attached and having to break it off. Bahaha. Well the search for this movie has been unsuccessful… I can’t find the name of it. I’m sure it was on Lifetime… Oh well. It was a beautiful moment.
As always, Sister Sol and I (and a sleeping Adelaide), watched a few movies on TV. We caught the middle of a Lifetime movie, I’m not sure of the title. I don’t know the plot very well partly because we came in at the middle and Sister Sol likes to switch the channels to check scores of games or other movies. Anyways, from what I gathered, the woman is looking for a new boyfriend or something through a radio contest. Her first husband died and she has son named Jonathan. I think the husband’s name is Bob. Bob’s ghost visits with Jonathan and they try to help the woman cope with Bob’s death. It was a really sweet story and I want to find out the rest of the story. But a movie review is not what I’m writing about. At one point in the movie, the woman wants to see Bob so badly and finally he appears to her. The scene between them was absolutely amazing. It was so fake, I mean its Lifetime, but I believed all of it. There was so much sincerity between those two people and suddenly I was crying. Over a Lifetime movie! It wasn’t a big sobbing cry but I was all teary and I don’t really understand how. That got me to thinking. I mean of course the past few weeks have been overwhelming to say the least, but why that moment in that movie? (Why this word now? Hehe)
The next day!
I was about to come to my conclusion but then we arrived at my house… Anyways, why am I crying over a Lifetime movie? [and I will now look up the movie and get the right names since I have internet] I see it this way: I’ve come to realize a few things about my recently ended relationship and it makes me really depressed. But at the same time I’m happy because I get to dream of my future Mr. Right while singing “I’ve Been Dreaming of a True Love’s Kiss” and making up my next relationship requirements which my Studio is totally aware of. So anyways, I’m watching this Lifetime movie and I realize that I want what that couple has. Complete sincerity, honesty. I look back at the past year and a half and I thought that I had it, but I really didn’t. I was honest and sincere on my end, but that was not what I was getting in return, especially towards the end. I’ve been so lost in wondering why I’ve been feeling so weird about the whole relationship and now I know and it’s a little sad, but so great at the same time. And like Sister Sol says, I should date 100 guys before I find the perfect one. Well, maybe I won’t date 100 guys, but I have a few things I don’t want in a guy now, and many things that I do want. I figure, if I have these I can cut down on at least 75 “eligible” guys without getting attached and having to break it off. Bahaha. Well the search for this movie has been unsuccessful… I can’t find the name of it. I’m sure it was on Lifetime… Oh well. It was a beautiful moment.
Friday, December 14, 2007
So I just made this
JESSIEH HELP ME!
I've made this all by myself. But i dont know how to be cool. So i can blog better later with the help of a really cool girl I know that has an awesome blog...
Because now i have exams to study for. Isnt that nice? No its not. Because precal is not my type of subject. And the english exam is going to be evil. oh yeah, french. ack. So basically I'm going to go nuts. All will be good. I'll just do some math and listen to Aida ((the broadway one)) or just do math because i cannot listen to musicals and study. And i can waste time by doing this. And working on stuff like singing because tomorrow is the last day. sad! Ok. im done. no introduction......
more later. some poetry of sorts. maybe even a funny story. haha. i have a secret...
and i really dont know how to navigate on here! oh well. i'm hitting publish post and i'll see what happens.
I've made this all by myself. But i dont know how to be cool. So i can blog better later with the help of a really cool girl I know that has an awesome blog...
Because now i have exams to study for. Isnt that nice? No its not. Because precal is not my type of subject. And the english exam is going to be evil. oh yeah, french. ack. So basically I'm going to go nuts. All will be good. I'll just do some math and listen to Aida ((the broadway one)) or just do math because i cannot listen to musicals and study. And i can waste time by doing this. And working on stuff like singing because tomorrow is the last day. sad! Ok. im done. no introduction......
more later. some poetry of sorts. maybe even a funny story. haha. i have a secret...
and i really dont know how to navigate on here! oh well. i'm hitting publish post and i'll see what happens.
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